.an apology letter

i forgive myself for all the pain i’ve caused… to myself + anyone else. i forgive myself for the times i didn’t believe in me. i forgive myself for all of the doubt + lack of confidence. i forgive myself for any words i spewed out of anger, hurt +/or frustration. i forgive myself for all of the times i talked me out of taking a chance + doing new things. i forgive myself for not listening to my body when it was practically yelling at me. i forgive myself for the constant war between my body, mind + soul. i forgive myself for ignoring the three of them all of this time. i forgive myself for when i was lost + felt incomplete.

i forgive myself for carrying around the weight of my past. i forgive myself for all of the moments that i was not living in the present. i forgive myself for all the time i just didn’t know what i wanted my future to hold.i forgive myself for not knowing how washed away my true power was. i forgive myself for quieting my inner voice so i could hear others better. i forgive myself for being in my head so much. i forgive myself for talking down to me. i forgive myself for casting judgement on others. i forgive myself for not being my authentic self. i forgive myself for all the time i felt like i “wasted”. i forgive myself for putting my trust into the hands of others when i was perfectly capable. i forgive myself for ever feeling like i wasn’t enough.

i forgive myself for staying so silent when there was so much to say. i forgive myself for quitting all the things i started + never finished. i forgive myself for feeling the need to follow the dreams of the people who never reached their own. i forgive myself for ghosting people who only meant me well. i forgive myself for over-analyzing past conversations. i forgive myself for the times i didn’t give it my all. i forgive myself for ignoring all the signs. i i forgive myself for trying to love others before i ever knew how to love myself.

not only do i forgive myself, i forgive everyone in the world. i forgive everyone who i felt had hurt me. instead of regrets i thank you all for opening my eyes and teaching me in so many ways. i thank you for the lessons that came with the pain. i thank you for the experiences that made me who i am today. i thank you so much, cause who knows where i would be if even one tiny thing was different.

i am setting myself free. i am allowing myself to love in a new way. i allow myself to be full of love + light.

i love you.

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